I apologize for the delays. I have been SO busy. SO much has changed since I have been on last. My son’s father & I are still not together. In fact we are both seeing other people now. The difference is that his new gf & he met her at a bar with her fake ID & My new “whatever” he is, is 23, and with a son of his own. He is a great father to his son who is 3 & loves Emryck.
I have been busting my ass at work. & I am just living my life day to day. Trying to figure everything out as I go. I still can’t afford a car. & It is annoying sometimes but whatever, I deal.
I will post some new pics up of Emryck that I took at my photo studio.
Since I have last posted, Emryck has turned 1, his father & I have broken up, and I got a job.
I would love for Emryck, Viktor & I to live in the perfect world with our happy little family that we have created. However, that is just not an option right now. Viktor wants to live a “single-man’s” life style. (although all of his family & friends know that he is not being true to himself) I’m trying to get over it but of course, it will take a long time. Spending every day for 3 years with the same person and then going back to seeing him maybe once a week is very difficult & upsetting. I feel like as if I have lost my best friend. But, I am working on building back up my strength. (I even went out on a date.) I will either get over this & move on, or we will some day end up back together.. we are together for life now since we have a child together. I will just have to wait to see what happens..
we did a family photo shoot @my job recently & I just got the pictures in so right after I post this, I will upload the ones that I purchased.
it is getting pretty un-livable at home… i am trying my hardest STILL to get a job so i can get out in august when my bf will need a new roommate (600$ a month….) or to be out by the time my mom leaves for Indiana or ASAP after she leaves. I will go to social services for rent support if i have to.
Everyone feels that once my mom leaves my dad won’t be a crazy person anymore.. but I know better than that. And I am not sticking around to find out. It is putting my son’s health and sanity at risk. As well as my own.